153.04: The Patterns (Part 4)

All too often loving © is like looking into the sun: when I close my eyes all I see is the shadow burned onto my eyes.

153.03: The Pattern (Part 3)

The moment I awoke to the reality that © doesn’t care about me, our life, or our future, I am free. I am free to go dancing. I am free to walk into any place and order a beer. Free to ask a friend that loves me, accepts my Ugly, and hasn’t run, to dance with me.

153.02 The Pattern (Part 2)

I adulted…and I can do that because I’m dealing with my shit, my traumas, my decisions, and my consequences. I blame no one.

153.01: The Pattern (Part 1)

Tonight, with Dr. Deb’ wisdom, Fire and Star’s love, Dr. Madden’s writings, a bit of Elle insight, and a whole lot of © and Patsy III’s theatrics tonight, I think I successfully buried the remains of our relationship at sea…actually a lake.

152: Paradoxes

“It can be true that your husband is a kind, good-hearted soul. And also true that he made choices that hurt you deeply.” via Elle Grant, Author

151: Thoughts on Cruelty

Cruelty is cheap, easy, and chickenshit. – Brene Brown, Dare to Lead

150: The Fall

Over the last 10 months, I’ve had a fall (both literally and symbolically). And now I need to let go of the beautiful sorrow and sadness that has been hanging on. I need to drop the things that have served their purpose…

149: Thoughts on They Cheat Because Their Souls Were Starving (Oh Brother) by SpaghettiSam

SpaghettiSam asks, “What has changed in this person so that the next time a crisis occurs or they aren’t feeling loved and special they don’t opt to go fuck another person?”

Good question.

148: Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

I made a series of short-sighted and immature decisions requiring more ugly, selfish, short-sighted, immature & heartless decision about how to hide.

147: Thoughts on Weeping in Walmart: A Twitter Conversation

Shit can turn on a dime.