The Good Doctor asked me today if I still love you?Read More 43: Do I Love You?
There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don’t think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.Read More 25: Of Apples and Badassery
I packed up everything and moved to Pittsburgh last week. I don’t see myself ever going back. I don’t want to be here but none the less I am.
And that’s that…Read More 24: And that’s that
For nearly a year I gave away my Power and self-respect to Silence. I know what needs to be done.
Maybe I always knew but lacked the willingness to face it.Read More 23: More of This and Lots of That
Heroes are expendable. When it was hard she left and never looked back.
I’m done being anyone’s Hero. I’ve paid my dues. I want to be a King to a Queen. I’m not disposable.
It is her loss.Read More 22: The Protector and symbolism
15: Three Conversations
My marriage to K was a wonderful, meaningful relationship too. I never regretted marrying K but I have all too often regretted not making the most of it.
The question becomes then, “Why don’t you go back to your ex-wife?”Read More 14: K
I’ve tried not to make irrecoverable or forced errors. I’ve tried to not run from my pain and grieving but protecting the past from C’s wrath isn’t my responsibility either.Read More 02: Dig If You Will The Picture
This is the first week in a very long time, where I am not overwhelmed with feelings of shame and humiliation. I did what I did. I cannot undue it. I cannot change any of it.Read More 01: A Fresh Start
I adulted…and I can do that because I’m dealing with my shit, my traumas, my decisions, and my consequences. I blame no one.Read More 153.02 The Pattern (Part 2)