I made mistakes. I’m learning. I’m growing. I’ll keep doing better but as I heal, examine myself in the mirror, and let people back into my life I hope this is what I can find within and bring back to the table as a more emotionally complete man.
Perhaps this is the letter I should have written to myself.
Read More 45: A Love Letter to ©
Moving forward, “Are my choices and actions consistent with what I value or am I doing things simply because I are afraid of what will happen if I don’t?”
I need to know to move forward.
Read More 04: A Love Letter to the Betrayer – The Three Questions
I know you hurt Pain is not wrong…The moment we believe something is wrong, our world shrinks and we lose ourselves in the effort to combat the pain. Tara Brach, Radical Acceptance: Embracing Your Life With the Heart of a Buddha Good day my Friend. Depending where you are, it may not feel like a good […]
Read More 03: A Love Letter to the Betrayer – I Know You Hurt
It seems I’m compelled to write to the men and women that betrayed their Loves, lives, and selves directly.
Read More 01: A Love Letter to the Betrayers
Their podcast helps me understand my responses, and therefore, the responses of the people around me. If I can see myself more clearly I can see those around me more clearly too.
Read More Thoughts on Therapist Uncensored’s Brain Science 101
I have, on more than one occasion over the last 15 months found myself voluntarily leaning into pointless discussions with ill-informed people over issues of my identity, my life with my xp, and the decisions I was making before and after the discovery.
Read More Thoughts on Excuse Making vs Understanding by Lisa Arends
Intentions don’t matter when u r bleeding out emotionally. There is no room for nuance when performing emotional triage on your identity and life.
Read More Thoughts on Conflict Transformation: Intentions, Not Excuses (Part 2)
There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don’t think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.
Read More 25: Of Apples and Badassery
I am willing to accept far less than I offer in exchange for being loved, to be important to someone. I was willing to do the work – mine and hers – and avoided bringing my needs and wants of the Partnership. I acted as if I wasn’t as important as her.
Read More 21: A Reality Check with the Good Doctor
I acted in ways involving plenty of shitheadery but it pales in comparison to the shit our imaginations make up to keep us locked in fear in an attempt to keep us safe.
Read More 20: A Letter from the Good Doctor