82: The Elephant
This morning at 8:00 am CST I am facing my fears, anxieties, and humiliations. Anxiety wants me to hide so I’ve decided to do the opposite. I’m going to treat Anxiety like the bully it is: I’m going to punch it in the nose.
Read More 82: The Elephant
“I’ve rightfully felt anger, rage, hurt, trauma, disrespect, tricked and disgust because he fucked other women – plain and simple – and him fucking other women was NOT in my plan.”
Read More 81: Ripping up the old contract — A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction
2 Days: It’s all Hertz
The justification and rationalization for hating C are always easy to find. The brain is a rationalizing, justifying, negative thought manufacturing machine broadcasting thoughts at 50 hertz.
Read More 2 Days: Magic Brain Hertz
3 Days: Outwaiting Clouds
I have faith spring’s warmth and sunshine will come even if I don’t see it today.
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5 Days: Not A Ghost Story
“My loyalty has never wavered. I was always there. I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. But when you measure my allegiance only by where I stick my dick, it’s as if the rest doesn’t count for a thing.”
Read More 5 Days: No More Ghost Stories
I left on C’s terms. I’m coming home on my own. I’m coming home to my friends. I’m coming home to reclaim my self-respect and power.
Read More Going Home
Three lessons on infidelity: 1.) I’m not a victim 2.) Secrets Suck 3.) Friendship and Ghost Stories
Read More Betrayal: 70 Days, 3 Lessons
How can I hope for her forgiveness when I cannot forgive myself?
Read More 22: Broken
We color both the innocuous actions and the intent of the betrayal in hyperbolic terms, covered in dashes of the conspiratory and the menacing. Every action must have hidden ill-will. Every act must be a reflection of a deeper darkness.
Read More Betrayal: The Team Sport