Until Chef pointed out the danger and threats inherent in the actions of the Flying Monkeys I didn't fully appreciate the violent intentions lurking beneath their deeds and stories. I do now.
I have no obligation to anyone to be the same today as I was a year ago or even 15 minutes ago. I have the right to shed the ideas, opinions, behaviors, and beliefs I held even a short time ago when I realize they aren't working for me.
And I wrestle with myself for repeatedly giving you the benefit of the doubt because in the quietest of quiet I know this is your pattern and you aren't going to change. And in the stillest of still moments I find I still care about you and your suffering.
I was reminded again today that the consequences of my betrayal, secret keeping, and escalating series of lies casts a long shadow.