Targets are stuck between a rock and a hard place, right where the Narcissist wants them to be, damned if they defend themselves and damned if they don’t BUT basically isolated and defenseless.
After Narcissistic Abuse
Read More 128.03: Mostly Last Thoughts on Interlopers and Rumormongers
127: Monkeys in the Middle
I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.
Read More 127: Monkeys in the Middle
125: Once a cheater…
“So often we want to take this behavior and now reduce the entire person to just that.” – Esther Perel
Read More 125: Once a cheater…
113: All that we are not
You cannot be vulnerable and safe. Vulnerability is (risk + uncertainty + emotional openness). By definition, safety is to be free of risk and uncertainty. They just cannot exist in the same spiritual space.
Read More 113: All that we are not
112: @Dawn_ByTheCreek asks, “What am I doing?”
I’ve asked myself that question thousands of times a day over the years of my betrayal. I’ve asked myself that questions a thousand times a day since the reveal.
Read More 112: What am I doing? — Walking the Journey
111: The Utmost Purest Intentions
I’ve made 132 posts since December 22 on my journal. Today I made 42 of them private placing them in archives.
Read More 111: The Utmost Purest Intentions
106: The Mighty
“Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.”
I often wonder what keeps relationships going when, on the surface, it seems like there is so much going against them.
Read More 106: The Mighty
97.1: I Contain Multitudes (1 of 2)
We are all self-made blind to the kaleidoscope of wants, needs, and desires of the people around us. To see them more fully is to see ourselves more truthfully and honestly.
Read More 97.1: I Contain Multitudes (Part 1 of 2)
I made the decision to spend time with K. My betrayal of C, and the subsequent behaviors and the betrayal of K are inexorably linked. One betrayal cannot exist without the other.
Read More 88: K
85: Running Scared
I only know what the trolls’ think. I will never know what C feels or thinks because, like so much of my relationship, she lacks the courage and willingness to tell me. That gives her power.
Read More 85: Running Away