I finally had enough and recognized how idiot compassion for Painter was an obstacle to my growth and moving forward in my life.
Until Chef pointed out the danger and threats inherent in the actions of the Flying Monkeys I didn't fully appreciate the violent intentions lurking beneath their deeds and stories. I do now.
My experiences over the last several years has shown me how often my ego and pride need to be satiated before I will forgive someone I have decided has failed me. Even then I'm not sure I am forgiving as much as waiting to be right again.
Here is the reality, dig down a bit, and beneath all Painter’s cuntishness is pain. I know it isn’t personal, except where I make it so.