96.1: Join Me (WTF was I thinking?)
Reading what I write is your choice. I’m not responsible for your choices, thoughts, or feelings. It is why I lied and kept secrets. I’m responsible for telling you the truth and being honest.
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96: Join Me!
As I approach the six month benchmark the next step is to make my writing private. I hope you will subscribe by email or Wordpress.
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90.2: A Perspective on C (Part 2 of 2)
I’m still left to guess at C’s motivations. However, at this point at least I have some perspective and knowledge.
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90.1: A Perspective on C (Part 1 of 2)
I want C to be happy, joyous, and free. If not with me, then where ever she is and with whoever she chooses. I want for her what I want for myself. All I ever want was for her to be more fully herself.
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89: Road Warrior
Many people would run for their own reasons. Many people run from their humiliations and anxiety. Me? I’m staying to face my humiliations, anxiety, and failure.
That takes courage and honesty.
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I made the decision to spend time with K. My betrayal of C, and the subsequent behaviors and the betrayal of K are inexorably linked. One betrayal cannot exist without the other.
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Goodbye by Friday’s Guest Writer (03)
20 months you were in MY husband’s thoughts and heart. I’ve ran through so many emotions and feelings towards you. Today I’m left with pity. And nausea. And fury.
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2 Days: It’s all Hertz
The justification and rationalization for hating C are always easy to find. The brain is a rationalizing, justifying, negative thought manufacturing machine broadcasting thoughts at 50 hertz.
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6 Days: Moving On
C and I always said to each other: no matter the problem as long as we’re together we can overcome anything.
Of course, I said a lot of things. So did she.
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This article is without a doubt, the most accurate, and thorough description of my thinking, actions, feelings, and perception of self I have found about the consequences, pain, and anxiety of being tied down by secrets and lies.
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