96.1: Join Me (WTF was I thinking?)
Reading what I write is your choice. I’m not responsible for your choices, thoughts, or feelings. It is why I lied and kept secrets. I’m responsible for telling you the truth and being honest.
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96: Join Me!
As I approach the six month benchmark the next step is to make my writing private. I hope you will subscribe by email or Wordpress.
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Holding Back by Fridays Guest Writer (04)
Did my affair happen because of loneliness or fate? Maybe due to love of sex or to my lack of sex. I’m not sure which drove me to cheat; but to this day, I still cheat and have no regrets.
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90.2: A Perspective on C (Part 2 of 2)
I’m still left to guess at C’s motivations. However, at this point at least I have some perspective and knowledge.
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90.1: A Perspective on C (Part 1 of 2)
I want C to be happy, joyous, and free. If not with me, then where ever she is and with whoever she chooses. I want for her what I want for myself. All I ever want was for her to be more fully herself.
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89: Road Warrior
Many people would run for their own reasons. Many people run from their humiliations and anxiety. Me? I’m staying to face my humiliations, anxiety, and failure.
That takes courage and honesty.
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Goodbye by Friday’s Guest Writer (03)
20 months you were in MY husband’s thoughts and heart. I’ve ran through so many emotions and feelings towards you. Today I’m left with pity. And nausea. And fury.
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85: Running Scared
I only know what the trolls’ think. I will never know what C feels or thinks because, like so much of my relationship, she lacks the courage and willingness to tell me. That gives her power.
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Sucker Punched by Friday’s Guest Writer (02)
My name is Jen, and I am a betrayed spouse. If you are reading this, I am sorry that this has happened to you. However, maybe you will find something useful as you navigate this journey.
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“I’ve rightfully felt anger, rage, hurt, trauma, disrespect, tricked and disgust because he fucked other women – plain and simple – and him fucking other women was NOT in my plan.”
Read More 81: Ripping up the old contract — A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction