131: Happy Endings by Not Your Average Girl

I’ve always known what I want and I’m acting accordingly. I’m not wasting time if it helps me learn, grow and see the world and myself more clearly.

127: Monkeys in the Middle

I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.

126: Grrr…

The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.

122: FFS

I miss you. Woke up dreaming of you again.

Eight months today.

121: Trickle Truth HELL by Walking the Journey

The truth will not set you free. What you do with the truth will.

119: And so it goes

“How often we murder parts of ourselves by not letting things advance or come close. How often we let fear rule our emotional lives. How often we kill or chase away everything that moves.” – @MarkNepo

113: All that we are not

You cannot be vulnerable and safe. Vulnerability is (risk + uncertainty + emotional openness). By definition, safety is to be free of risk and uncertainty. They just cannot exist in the same spiritual space.

112: What am I doing? — Walking the Journey

112: @Dawn_ByTheCreek asks, “What am I doing?”

I’ve asked myself that question thousands of times a day over the years of my betrayal. I’ve asked myself that questions a thousand times a day since the reveal.

108: Never Not Broken

The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.

I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.

106: The Mighty

“Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.”

I often wonder what keeps relationships going when, on the surface, it seems like there is so much going against them.