I have no desire to be another's jailer. I have no interest in being another's prisoner.
The body reacts to sexual arousal and the flu in similar ways. As such, if I don't stop long enough to greet my emotional and physical sensations with curiosity, I will get fucked twice.
I have, on more than one occasion over the last 15 months found myself voluntarily leaning into pointless discussions with ill-informed people over issues of my identity, my life with my xp, and the decisions I was making before and after the discovery.
I know his morning I will need to take the gloves off if I want to break the Pattern that brought me here. I will have to embrace the role of Villain if I want to be free.
And that scares me.