52: My Anxious Bladder

I hate admitting anxiety is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

06: A Love Letter to the Betrayers – Suicide

Pain isn’t the enemy. Suicide isn’t the answer.

Thoughts on Memories by Reconcile4Life

What is the truth and how do you know?

19: When infidelity is loving

I’m left to lie to myself so that I can remain angry enough to justify not caring any longer. It requires maintaining a general apathy towards my own truth, and a casual dismissal of my heart, and therefore to my life.

148: Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

I made a series of short-sighted and immature decisions requiring more ugly, selfish, short-sighted, immature & heartless decision about how to hide.

145: Thoughts on About Forgiveness by Mark Nepo

This is what has kept me from forgiveness: the feeling that all I’ve been through will evaporate if I don’t relive it; that if those who have hurt me don’t see what they’ve done, my suffering will have been for nothing. In this, the stone I throw in the lake knows more than I. Its ripples vanish.

143: Silence – Day 34

I’m looking to answer the central question Dr. Madden asks in her book, After A Good Man Cheats, “Do u really want ur relationship back, or r u simply panicking & doing the things u think u r supposed to do?”

142: This is where I am

Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.

138: Slut

Labeling someone a slut – or a narcissist, predator, or whore – isn’t rape, but the emotional intentions are the same. It’s about taking someone’s Power.

134: The Silent Treatment

134.01: The Silent Treatment (1 of 2)

Silence for the first time makes complete sense.

I’m such a selfish, self-absorbed, blind, deaf, and dumb prick.