50: Things I Carry: Grief and Joy

Certainly, things and people change – the simpatico of our needs can shift – but we have no chance of recognizing real change or loss if we cannot recognize and accept our inability at times to feel what we see… Being Human, we all have fogs roll in around our heart, and often, our lives […]

48: Fall in Love

Try this again shall we?

46: The Silent Treatment

This is my pattern. I am committed to breaking the pattern.

40: A Moment of Truth

When the longing unexpectedly blooms for C, I need not fear the sting from the hidden bee but remember that alongside C my life blossomed and flowed into a new season. Though the season has passed what I reap in this season is based on what I sowed in the last.

28: I am a leaf on the wind

Too often I sense my grieving keeps me focused on things outside my control. However, with time and loving intention, my grieving gives way to a renewed focus on my own patterns, roles, choices, and opportunities.

21: A Reality Check with the Good Doctor

I am willing to accept far less than I offer in exchange for being loved, to be important to someone. I was willing to do the work – mine and hers – and avoided bringing my needs and wants of the Partnership. I acted as if I wasn’t as important as her.

19: When infidelity is loving

I’m left to lie to myself so that I can remain angry enough to justify not caring any longer. It requires maintaining a general apathy towards my own truth, and a casual dismissal of my heart, and therefore to my life.

Thoughts on Mark Nepo and the Snappening

Today, I am feeling the entire weight of my xp’s snappening.

As Mark Nepo writes below, “rejection and opposition are painful, but being treated as if you don’t exist is quietly devastating.”

Best of 2018’s Week 48

Try this again shall we?

15: Three Conversations

1. Shame
2. Hope
3. Grieving