When the longing unexpectedly blooms for C, I need not fear the sting from the hidden bee but remember that alongside C my life blossomed and flowed into a new season. Though the season has passed what I reap in this season is based on what I sowed in the last.Read More 40: A Moment of Truth
The day is cold, and dark, and dreary
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But at every gust the dead leaves fall,
And the day is dark and dreary.
There is nothing simple that I have chosen to do. I think it is human to believe change is for the other person even when we know the solution lies within.Read More 32: Eeyore Visits Mordor
Too often I sense my grieving keeps me focused on things outside my control. However, with time and loving intention, my grieving gives way to a renewed focus on my own patterns, roles, choices, and opportunities.Read More 28: I am a leaf on the wind
I am willing to accept far less than I offer in exchange for being loved, to be important to someone. I was willing to do the work – mine and hers – and avoided bringing my needs and wants of the Partnership. I acted as if I wasn’t as important as her.Read More 21: A Reality Check with the Good Doctor
Try this again shall we?Read More Best of 2018’s Week 48
15: Three Conversations
My marriage to K was a wonderful, meaningful relationship too. I never regretted marrying K but I have all too often regretted not making the most of it.
The question becomes then, “Why don’t you go back to your ex-wife?”Read More 14: K
Well, that went better than I expected. Much better actually.Read More Best of 2018’s Week 47
Although I dream about C every day, I can’t go back, she’s gone away. It knocked me down but that’s okay. I’ve got this life to fix. I threw it all out in a ditch. Broken down when I was sick, now I gotta build it back up brick by brick.Read More Best of 2018’s Week 44