153.01: The Pattern (Part 1)

Tonight, with Dr. Deb’ wisdom, Fire and Star’s love, Dr. Madden’s writings, a bit of Elle insight, and a whole lot of © and Patsy III’s theatrics tonight, I think I successfully buried the remains of our relationship at sea…actually a lake.

151: Thoughts on Cruelty

Cruelty is cheap, easy, and chickenshit. – Brene Brown, Dare to Lead

150: The Fall

Over the last 10 months, I’ve had a fall (both literally and symbolically). And now I need to let go of the beautiful sorrow and sadness that has been hanging on. I need to drop the things that have served their purpose…

147: Thoughts on Weeping in Walmart: A Twitter Conversation

Shit can turn on a dime.

146: Thoughts on The Marriage of the Princess and the Dragon

I long for the chance to show C what is under the armor. I long for the chance to explore what C and I could create together…but that life is dead.

144: Thank You

A simple thank you.

Yesterday was not a good day. I’m not sleeping well, someone told me about C’s date, and the fucking honesty project the doctor has me doing left me angry. Which is good. I need to be angry. However, I learned long ago that focusing on the solution, and not the problem, is the only healthy path forward.

141: It’s not about me

I miss her. Sometimes I would just sit in the living room and watch her paint. I know she has been struggling with creating. I hope this is the start of her uncorking her creative bottle.

140: Parable of the Prickly Porcupine

I realize now my anger and defensiveness were about armoring my heart. I cannot get to where I want to go when weighed down by my anger’s armor.

139: The Naked Truth

The Truth and the Lie meet one day.

137.02 Birthdays

Every September 15th for the past five years I was there. My heart breaks that this year I won’t be. I did what I could on your birthday to let you know you matter, that you are all that matters, that you are loved. That I would always be there. What more could I have […]