Category: Moving On

153.03: The Pattern (Part 3)

Wanders

The moment I awoke to the reality that © doesn’t care about me, our life, or our future, I am free. I am free to go dancing. I am free to walk into any place and order a beer. Free to ask a friend that loves me, accepts my Ugly, and hasn’t run, to dance with me.

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150: The Fall

Wanders

Over the last 10 months, I’ve had a fall (both literally and symbolically). And now I need to let go of the beautiful sorrow and sadness that has been hanging on. I need to drop the things that have served their purpose…

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144: Thank You

Wanders

A simple thank you.

Yesterday was not a good day. I’m not sleeping well, someone told me about C’s date, and the fucking honesty project the doctor has me doing left me angry. Which is good. I need to be angry. However, I learned long ago that focusing on the solution, and not the problem, is the only healthy path forward.

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141: It’s not about me

Wanders

I miss her. Sometimes I would just sit in the living room and watch her paint. I know she has been struggling with creating. I hope this is the start of her uncorking her creative bottle.

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140: Parable of the Prickly Porcupine

Wanders

I realize now my anger and defensiveness were about armoring my heart. I cannot get to where I want to go when weighed down by my anger’s armor.

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137.02 Birthdays

Wanders

Every September 15th for the past five years I was there. My heart breaks that this year I won’t be. I did what I could on your birthday to let you know you matter, that you are all that matters, that you are loved. That I would always be there.  What more could I have

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136: Forgotten

Wanders

136: Forgotten

I’ve spent much time and energy focused on my Ugly and working through my pain and loss. As such, I’ve stopped examining what was beautiful and good. It has created a myopic and unbalanced perspective on Our lives.

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