Thoughts on Those Who’ve Fallen Through by Mark Nepo via Pathwriter

Let’s not bury the lead: I’ve been struggling the last 12 days with depression and yesterday morning I woke up actively contemplating suicide.

153.01: The Pattern (Part 1)

Tonight, with Dr. Deb’ wisdom, Fire and Star’s love, Dr. Madden’s writings, a bit of Elle insight, and a whole lot of © and Patsy III’s theatrics tonight, I think I successfully buried the remains of our relationship at sea…actually a lake.

148: Decisions, Decisions, Decisions

I made a series of short-sighted and immature decisions requiring more ugly, selfish, short-sighted, immature & heartless decision about how to hide.

Best of 2018’s Week 39

Here are the people, places, and things that carry me forward through the day as I trudge the road of happy destiny.

145: Thoughts on About Forgiveness by Mark Nepo

This is what has kept me from forgiveness: the feeling that all I’ve been through will evaporate if I don’t relive it; that if those who have hurt me don’t see what they’ve done, my suffering will have been for nothing. In this, the stone I throw in the lake knows more than I. Its ripples vanish.

143: Silence – Day 34

I’m looking to answer the central question Dr. Madden asks in her book, After A Good Man Cheats, “Do u really want ur relationship back, or r u simply panicking & doing the things u think u r supposed to do?”

Best of 2018’s Week 38

I miss your smile…and belonging to you.

Here are the people, places, and things that carry me forward through the day as I trudge the road of happy destiny.

Best of 2018’s Week 34

Nothing can prepare me for walking through the door except walking through it. I won’t even know its a door until I’m through, maybe not even then. All I do know, if there was ever any truth in our hearts about our future, we will find our way back together. And if not? Well, if not, we will find ourselves elsewhere.

132: Nepo’s Elves

If you only see me because of what I’ve written, or because of what others have said, or because of what you think of my betrayal, you don’t really see me.

You never have.

Best of 2018’s Week 33

My passion for C has always left me breathless. It has never wavered. I’ve shown her things about myself I never shared before. I shared things about my self I didn’t know I carried.