There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don’t think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.Read More 25: Of Apples and Badassery
Today, I am feeling the entire weight of my xp’s snappening.
As Mark Nepo writes below, “rejection and opposition are painful, but being treated as if you don’t exist is quietly devastating.”Read More Thoughts on Mark Nepo and the Snappening
Well, that went better than I expected. Much better actually.Read More Best of 2018’s Week 47
“What good if only your obedience and good manners are accepted and the rest of your passion and personality must be kept in hiding?” asks Mark NepoRead More Thoughts on The Puppy in the Pound by Mark Nepo
What a horrible expectation I place on another person, making them responsible for my safety. When they fail, and across a lifetime they will fail, I punish them for my expectations.Read More 10: Vulnerability
I’m actually in a better place now than I was before Monday’s physical and emotional collapse. I’m in a better place because I’m leaning into the pain.
I know who I am.Read More Update on Thoughts on Those Who’ve Fallen Through by Mark Nepo
Let’s not bury the lead: I’ve been struggling the last 12 days with depression and yesterday morning I woke up actively contemplating suicide.Read More Thoughts on Those Who’ve Fallen Through by Mark Nepo via Pathwriter
Tonight, with Dr. Deb’ wisdom, Fire and Star’s love, Dr. Madden’s writings, a bit of Elle insight, and a whole lot of © and Patsy III’s theatrics tonight, I think I successfully buried the remains of our relationship at sea…actually a lake.Read More 153.01: The Pattern (Part 1)
I made a series of short-sighted and immature decisions requiring more ugly, selfish, short-sighted, immature & heartless decision about how to hide.Read More 148: Decisions, Decisions, Decisions
Here are the people, places, and things that carry me forward through the day as I trudge the road of happy destiny.Read More Best of 2018’s Week 39