I was reminded again today that the consequences of my betrayal, secret keeping, and escalating series of lies casts a long shadow.Read More 64: Reminder2Self – Vengeance
Labeling someone a slut – or a narcissist, predator, or whore – isn’t rape, but the emotional intentions are the same. It’s about taking someone’s Power.Read More 138: Slut
127: Monkeys in the Middle
I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.Read More 127: Monkeys in the Middle
The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.Read More 126: Grrr…
123: The Onus of Healing by A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction
I need – no I WANT, someone that will work through the hard and Ugly things and not run away because they are scared or angry or shallow.Read More 123: Thoughts on The Onus of Healing by A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction
108: Never Not Broken
The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.
I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.Read More 108: Never Not Broken
101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) – Epilogue
As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain.
I’m excited about the possibilities.Read More 101.5: Unringing the Bell (Epilogue)
101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) – No excuse
There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal.
And I had many of both.Read More 101.1: Unringing the Bell (Part 1 of 5)
“I’ve rightfully felt anger, rage, hurt, trauma, disrespect, tricked and disgust because he fucked other women – plain and simple – and him fucking other women was NOT in my plan.”Read More 81:Thoughts on Ripping up the old contract by A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction
She is doing the best she can based on what she knows how to do. If she had experienced different things she would have done things differently.
Her behavior isn’t personal. For a long time I took it that way.Read More 58: After the storm