65.10: 1 Day: It’s time

1 Day: It’s time

65.9: 2 Days: Magic Brain Hertz

2 Days: It’s all Hertz

The justification and rationalization for hating C are always easy to find. The brain is a rationalizing, justifying, negative thought manufacturing machine broadcasting thoughts at 50 hertz.

65.6: 5 Days: No More Ghost Stories

5 Days: Not A Ghost Story

“My loyalty has never wavered. I was always there. I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. But when you measure my allegiance only by where I stick my dick, it’s as if the rest doesn’t count for a thing.”

65.5: 6 Days: Moving On

6 Days: Moving On

C and I always said to each other: no matter the problem as long as we’re together we can overcome anything.

Of course, I said a lot of things. So did she.

65.3: 8 Days: Thoughts on How More Secrets and Lies Destroy Relationships by Darlene Lancer

This article is without a doubt, the most accurate, and thorough description of my thinking, actions, feelings, and perception of self I have found about the consequences, pain, and anxiety of being tied down by secrets and lies.

65.3: 8 Days: Thoughts on How More Secrets and Lies Destroy Relationships by Darlene Lancer

66: Consequences are Personal

she asked me to write a story about the consequences of my betrayal, secret-keeping, and escalating series of lies. I hope my experience will benefit others. Let the pain have a purpose.

60: Why

I’m still not sure I have a real answer why I betrayed C. I’m not sure I will ever be able to provide a personally or socially satisfactory answer to the question.

56: A Fool’s Tale: Betrayal (Redux)

Originally posted on Love Letters to a Healing Heart:
Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent. The base Injustice thou hast done my Love: Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress, And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn’d; Heav’n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn’d, Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn‘d.…

55: 22 Days – A quick summary of my failures

I’ve made a lot mistakes since discovery day, 126 days ago. I may not be doing it perfectly but I’ve been doing it.

22 days.