65.10: 1 Day: It’s time

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After five months, 29,000 miles, 16 states I’m driving home to retrieve my heart.

There was a time when every mile I drove was to be closer to you. But niw, and for five months, every mile has been further away.

I was wrong to betray you, keep secrets, and use lies to cover up my shame, humiliation, and remorse. I’m sorry for the harms and hurts I’ve done you, our family, and our home.

Someday I hope you can forgive me and find your heart.

But by any measure it’s time for me to move on.

8 thoughts on “65.10: 1 Day: It’s time”

  1. RosieJoseph – France – Welcome to both my blogs. Due to my memoir I have had to use change my name after blogging for four years and use my new pseudonym: Rosie Joseph. I thought I would use my parents second names because I know they would be proud of me telling our story. Despite my blog Making this better being about infidelity I am still happily married to my darling husband. The affair happening in our lives encouraged to visit France and we moved to France in 2015 after an eight year love affair with it every summer. But life in France was tough, and we learned not to be afraid to make change, so we moved to Ireland at the end of 2020. I published ‘Making This Better’ the memoir where I share the whole 21 days that RD was not with me and how that affected me, and my journal entries for the first five years after 'The war' happened in our lives. I hoped that sharing our story will help others but I know now it really did from the feedback I have received from all over the world. Six years ago I wrote how I ‘loved my life in France, but I am loving the idea of an adventure more. I have the wanderlust bug who knows where life will take me next!’ Well now I know it took me to Ireland! Always remember what is important in life. The only moment is now. If you like to laugh, cry and reflect, then join me on my adventure. Rosie
    moisyswindell says:

    We are all human, we all make mistakes, and some of them teach us the hardest lessons, and hurt us the most. I support you all the way on your journey, in the words of George Benson, “the wounded heart will heal, yes it will”. Moisy

    1. Wanders – #Infidelity is an outcome of an unskillful coping mechanism, everything else is a story someone imagines. Sharing thoughts and letters with those the men and women that #betrayed their Loves, lives, and selves too. What you do today matters most. All anyone can do is own the experience and practice doing better.
      A Reformed Cad says:

      Thanks Dolly. One breathe at a time.i got this.

      1. yes, you do…

      2. Wanders – #Infidelity is an outcome of an unskillful coping mechanism, everything else is a story someone imagines. Sharing thoughts and letters with those the men and women that #betrayed their Loves, lives, and selves too. What you do today matters most. All anyone can do is own the experience and practice doing better.
        A Reformed Cad says:

        Still heartbroken but I’ve done what I can to try and have a conversation. There isn’t anything else I can do.

        Moving on…

        :-/

  3. Spouse of a Sex Addict – I started writing this blog 1 year post DDay #1, and 8 months post DDay #2. It's been a difficult up and down journey, but writing has allowed me to make the most progress with healing and allowing myself to still love him.
    Spouse of a Sex Addict says:

    Hugs RC xo

    1. Wanders – #Infidelity is an outcome of an unskillful coping mechanism, everything else is a story someone imagines. Sharing thoughts and letters with those the men and women that #betrayed their Loves, lives, and selves too. What you do today matters most. All anyone can do is own the experience and practice doing better.
      A Reformed Cad says:

      Thanks. 7 more hours to drive.

      Been reflecting on what needs done tomorrow on 0 day… pragmatic works and symbolism matter.

      Will do a bit of both over the upcoming week.

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