65.1: 10 Days: The Need to Speak

The Need to Speak: It is in the speaking of one’s heart that makes human being human.

62: Going Home

I left on C’s terms. I’m coming home on my own. I’m coming home to my friends. I’m coming home to reclaim my self-respect and power.

61: Other Peoples Problems — A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction

Other Peoples Problems — A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction.

Worth reposting because I find perspectives like this few and far between.

60: Why

I’m still not sure I have a real answer why I betrayed C. I’m not sure I will ever be able to provide a personally or socially satisfactory answer to the question.

59: Thoughts on Thanks for Stopping by: A Letter to an Interloper by Dolly Allen

Yesterday morning I woke up to find a comment by the troll Warren about me on a friend’s blog.

What happened next was both fascinating, amazing, and a bit terrifying.

Dolly is definitely the Queen.

58: After the storm

She is doing the best she can based on what she knows how to do. If she had experienced different things she would have done things differently.

Her behavior isn’t personal. For a long time I took it that way.

57: Anxiety Disorder is a Thing

In truth, I have an anxiety disorder. Anxiety has been killing me for 123 days. Chest pains, sleeplessness, nightmares, and fear constantly hound me. The trolling certainly hasn’t helped.

I hate admitting it is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

56: A Fool’s Tale: Betrayal (Redux)

Originally posted on Love Letters to a Healing Heart:
Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent. The base Injustice thou hast done my Love: Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress, And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn’d; Heav’n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn’d, Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn‘d.…

55: 22 Days – A quick summary of my failures

I’ve made a lot mistakes since discovery day, 126 days ago. I may not be doing it perfectly but I’ve been doing it.

22 days.

54: A Fool’s Tale: Betrayal

Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent. The base Injustice thou hast done my Love: Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress, And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn’d; Heav’n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn’d, Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn’d.