27: A Quickie

There are just some days, even 15 months later, where I still long to belong to you. I’m deeply, truly sorry I betrayed you, me, and us. I never wanted to be anywhere other than with you. Ever. You were the one. You were always the one.

15: Three Conversations

1. Shame
2. Hope
3. Grieving

152: Paradoxes

“It can be true that your husband is a kind, good-hearted soul. And also true that he made choices that hurt you deeply.” via Elle Grant, Author

137.02 Birthdays

Every September 15th for the past five years I was there. My heart breaks that this year I won’t be. I did what I could on your birthday to let you know you matter, that you are all that matters, that you are loved. That I would always be there. What more could I have […]

137.01 Remember

Seven years in a few seconds. She laughed. She smiled. She loved me. I loved her.

What did she love about me? I brought this out in her?

136: Forgotten

I’ve spent much time and energy focused on my Ugly and working through my pain and loss. As such, I’ve stopped examining what was beautiful and good. It has created a myopic and unbalanced perspective on Our lives.

119: And so it goes

“How often we murder parts of ourselves by not letting things advance or come close. How often we let fear rule our emotional lives. How often we kill or chase away everything that moves.” – @MarkNepo

94: The Ocean

You cannot break me.

90.1: A Perspective on C (Part 1 of 2)

I want C to be happy, joyous, and free. If not with me, then where ever she is and with whoever she chooses. I want for her what I want for myself. All I ever want was for her to be more fully herself.

80: Thank You

Thank You

As I cross the next bridge on my pilgrimage I do not know what I will find on the journey. However, whatever the travel brings I hope our paths cross on the road of life.