SpaghettiSam asks, “What has changed in this person so that the next time a crisis occurs or they aren’t feeling loved and special they don’t opt to go fuck another person?”
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The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.
Read More 126: Grrr…
I miss you. Woke up dreaming of you again.
Eight months today.
Read More 122: FFS
114: I’ve got this life to fix
I blew it.
But now? I got this life to fix. Gotta build it back up brick by brick.
I’ve got this.
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102: Back on track
I’m just living my life as I see fit; even though it’s a bit of a train wreck. I’m getting my life back on track, rediscovering my power, and reclaiming my self-respect.
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101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) – Epilogue
As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain.
I’m excited about the possibilities.
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101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) – No excuse
There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal.
And I had many of both.
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97.1: I Contain Multitudes (1 of 2)
We are all self-made blind to the kaleidoscope of wants, needs, and desires of the people around us. To see them more fully is to see ourselves more truthfully and honestly.
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90.2: A Perspective on C (Part 2 of 2)
I’m still left to guess at C’s motivations. However, at this point at least I have some perspective and knowledge.
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90.1: A Perspective on C (Part 1 of 2)
I want C to be happy, joyous, and free. If not with me, then where ever she is and with whoever she chooses. I want for her what I want for myself. All I ever want was for her to be more fully herself.
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