Love Letters to a Healing Heart
"Be not the slave of your own past – plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience, that shall explain and overlook the old." – Ralph Waldo Emerson
SpaghettiSam asks, “What has changed in this person so that the next time a crisis occurs or they aren’t feeling loved and special they don’t opt to go fuck another person?”
Good question.
Read More 149: Thoughts on They Cheat Because Their Souls Were Starving (Oh Brother) by SpaghettiSamDo you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.
Read More 142: This is where I amEvery September 15th for the past five years I was there. My heart breaks that this year I won’t be. I did what I could on your birthday to let you know you matter, that you are all that matters, that you are loved. That I would always be there. What more could I have […]
Read More 137.02 BirthdaysI’ll keep working on changing the things I can and accepting the things I can’t. You can hurt me but you cannot break me. Only the rigid shatter. As always, I keep my heart soft towards you. Not simply because I love you, but because I love myself enough to know this is best for me.
Read More 135: More Patterns123: The Onus of Healing by A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction
I need – no I WANT, someone that will work through the hard and Ugly things and not run away because they are scared or angry or shallow.
Read More 123: Thoughts on The Onus of Healing by A Couples Journey of Recovery from Sex Addiction118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency
I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?
Read More 118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency117: This and That
C brings the same depth of passion to hate you and resent you as she brought to love you and care for you. You did this to her heart. She didn’t do this to you…but today you both are choosing which wolf to feed.
Read More 117: This and That113: All that we are not
You cannot be vulnerable and safe. Vulnerability is (risk + uncertainty + emotional openness). By definition, safety is to be free of risk and uncertainty. They just cannot exist in the same spiritual space.
Read More 113: Thoughts on All that we are not by Mark Nepo108: Never Not Broken
The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.
I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.
Read More 108: Never Not Broken101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) – Epilogue
As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain.
I’m excited about the possibilities.
Read More 101.5: Unringing the Bell (Epilogue)