There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don’t think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.Read More 25: Of Apples and Badassery
I packed up everything and moved to Pittsburgh last week. I don’t see myself ever going back. I don’t want to be here but none the less I am.
And that’s that…Read More 24: And that’s that
My marriage to K was a wonderful, meaningful relationship too. I never regretted marrying K but I have all too often regretted not making the most of it.
The question becomes then, “Why don’t you go back to your ex-wife?”Read More 14: K
I adulted…and I can do that because I’m dealing with my shit, my traumas, my decisions, and my consequences. I blame no one.Read More 153.02 The Pattern (Part 2)
“It can be true that your husband is a kind, good-hearted soul. And also true that he made choices that hurt you deeply.” via Elle Grant, AuthorRead More 152: Paradoxes
SpaghettiSam asks, “What has changed in this person so that the next time a crisis occurs or they aren’t feeling loved and special they don’t opt to go fuck another person?”
Good question.Read More 149: Thoughts on They Cheat Because Their Souls Were Starving (Oh Brother) by SpaghettiSam
Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.Read More 142: This is where I am
I miss her. Sometimes I would just sit in the living room and watch her paint. I know she has been struggling with creating. I hope this is the start of her uncorking her creative bottle.Read More 141: It’s not about me
I realize now my anger and defensiveness were about armoring my heart. I cannot get to where I want to go when weighed down by my anger’s armor.Read More 140: Parable of the Prickly Porcupine
Seven years in a few seconds. She laughed. She smiled. She loved me. I loved her.
What did she love about me? I brought this out in her?Read More 137.01 Remember