37: A Bit on Forgiveness

My experiences over the last several years has shown me how often my ego and pride need to be satiated before I will forgive someone I have decided has failed me. Even then I'm not sure I am forgiving as much as waiting to be right again.

25: Of Apples and Badassery

There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don't think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.

24: And that’s that

I packed up everything and moved to Pittsburgh last week. I don't see myself ever going back. I don't want to be here but none the less I am.

And that's that...

14: K

My marriage to K was a wonderful, meaningful relationship too. I never regretted marrying K but I have all too often regretted not making the most of it.

The question becomes then, "Why don't you go back to your ex-wife?"

153.02 The Pattern (Part 2)

I adulted...and I can do that because I'm dealing with my shit, my traumas, my decisions, and my consequences. I blame no one. 

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