18: A Fool's Tale

(For often) a man’s own angry pride Is cap and bells for a fool.” – Tennyson. Maud, VI.

I do not see any way home for me following the reveal of my lies and infidelity. C’s passive-aggressive revenge and my fracturing and betrayal have resulted in one post-discovery choice after another sandbagging opportunities for a future together.

However, what is true for me isn’t true for everyone. I think this is a great read.

Don’t let angry pride make you a fool.

The Queen Is In

buckle up

I had a Twitter conversation this morning with a remorseful man who cheated. I tried to express how I felt when I found out, how ugly my frame of mind was at the time, devoid of any kind of logic or rational behavior.  The tweeting back and forth brought me back to those first days.

When I first found out, it was a total shock. I did my research and within hours I knew who the skank was and where she lived.  I printed the phone logs. Within 24 hours, I saw an attorney to begin divorce proceedings and the following evening, I went to her house.  My husband’s car was on the street. I remember wanting to smash his windshield with a sledgehammer.  My body was shaking, my heart was broken, my life as I knew it was shattered and the sheer rage was overwhelming.  As I recall that…

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