142: This is where I am

Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.

137.01 Remember

Seven years in a few seconds. She laughed. She smiled. She loved me. I loved her.

What did she love about me? I brought this out in her?

136: Forgotten

I’ve spent much time and energy focused on my Ugly and working through my pain and loss. As such, I’ve stopped examining what was beautiful and good. It has created a myopic and unbalanced perspective on Our lives.

134: The Silent Treatment

134.01: The Silent Treatment (1 of 2)

Silence for the first time makes complete sense.

I’m such a selfish, self-absorbed, blind, deaf, and dumb prick.

133: Sounding Advice

“You still have C on a pedestal” and other friendly insight.

132: Nepo’s Elves

If you only see me because of what I’ve written, or because of what others have said, or because of what you think of my betrayal, you don’t really see me.

You never have.

131: Thoughts on Happy Endings by Not Your Average Girl

131: Happy Endings by Not Your Average Girl

I’ve always known what I want and I’m acting accordingly. I’m not wasting time if it helps me learn, grow and see the world and myself more clearly.

126: Grrr…

The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.

125: Thoughts on Once a cheater from Ester Perel…

125: Once a cheater…

“So often we want to take this behavior and now reduce the entire person to just that.” – Esther Perel

122: FFS

I miss you. Woke up dreaming of you again.

Eight months today.