107: Hope and Envy

106: Hope and Envy

I want to be done caring or remembering or feeling. Yet hope and romanticism continue mocking my desire to let go. They dances through my dreams.

103: Three Conversations

Love and leave. Love and stay. There is no wrong answer.

What would you do? Do you have the courage to move through the pride and face the pain?

101.5: Unringing the Bell (Epilogue)

101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) – Epilogue

As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain.

I’m excited about the possibilities.

101.4: Unringing the Bell (Part 4 of 5)

101.4: Unringing the Bell (4 of 5) – Some House Cleaning

I’ve learned everyone has their own Uglies. Hurt people hurt people and you never really know how people will respond to hurt until they are hurt.

Some run, others fight.

101.3: Unringing the Bell (Part 3 of 5)

101.3: Unringing the Bell (3 of 5) – The Human Beings

I’ve talked about C and K in fairly abstract terms. I need to take some time and clarify details on those relationships as I see them.

I want you to see them as people too.

101.2: Unringing the Bell (Part 2 of 5)

101.2: Unringing the Bell (Part 2 of 5) – Let’s Be Clear

We cannot talk about this if we don’t talk about this.

99: Thoughts on the Lies Your Anxiety Constantly Tells You About Yourself

Lies Your Anxiety Constantly Tells You About Yourself

I absolutely understand this now. I really had no idea how this drives so much of my negative self talk. I’m actively working on it.

97.1: I Contain Multitudes (Part 1 of 2)

97.1: I Contain Multitudes (1 of 2)

We are all self-made blind to the kaleidoscope of wants, needs, and desires of the people around us. To see them more fully is to see ourselves more truthfully and honestly.

Holding Back by Fridays Guest Writer (04)

Did my affair happen because of loneliness or fate? Maybe due to love of sex or to my lack of sex. I’m not sure which drove me to cheat; but to this day, I still cheat and have no regrets.

65.3: 8 Days: Thoughts on How More Secrets and Lies Destroy Relationships by Darlene Lancer

This article is without a doubt, the most accurate, and thorough description of my thinking, actions, feelings, and perception of self I have found about the consequences, pain, and anxiety of being tied down by secrets and lies.