52: Intention

I’ve made my intentions clear. I will love you intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally.

51: The Things I Carry: Anxiety Disorder

I have an #anxietydisorder. I hate admitting it is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

50: Queen of My Heart

What would it say about me if I could pretend it didn’t matter to me? What would it say if I just walked away from her and hated her back. I’ve earned her hate.

I know what I did.

No.

I’ll take all the slings and arrows.

49: A Review: Day 22 – Guessing

Guessing creates drama. Guessing will screw with people’s heads. Don’t make people guess what you want and need.

48: Thoughts on Adulting 101 – The other side by Walking the Journey

I really enjoyed this story of friendship, love, and forgiveness from my Twitter friend Walking the Journey. I especially like this paragraph about seeing her husband facing the shame of his infidelity.

It’s important to embrace the other side.

47: Broken Knights and other fishy tales

“You either die a hero or live long enough to become a villain.” – Harvey Dent

It’s ironic when I was lying and secret-keeping my infidelity was slowly killing me and when the truth came out it destroyed my life. Now that I’ve embraced being secret free and open people want me to shut up and keep secrets.

47: Broken Knights and other fishy tales

“You either die a hero or live long enough to become a villain.” – Harvey Dent

46: This is the power of shame

The criminalization of infidelity encourages more secret keeping. Criminalization behavior won’t stop infidelities from happening but it does reinforce shame forcing more hiding, trickle truth, and secret keeping.

44: Jealousy

I awoke from a nightmare at 4 am. C was dating again. Dancing with another man. Laughing at me. Mocking me. Flashing the smile I love towards another man. Ignoring me but still watching me.

I woke up jealous. Tearful. Heartbroken.

44: Jealousy

I awoke from a nightmare at 4 am. C was dating again. Dancing with another man. Laughing at me. Mocking me. Flashing the smile I love towards another man. Ignoring me but still watching me.

I woke up jealous. Tearful. Heartbroken.