101.4: Unringing the Bell (4 of 5) – Some House Cleaning
I’ve learned everyone has their own Uglies. Hurt people hurt people and you never really know how people will respond to hurt until they are hurt.
Some run, others fight.
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101.3: Unringing the Bell (3 of 5) – The Human Beings
I’ve talked about C and K in fairly abstract terms. I need to take some time and clarify details on those relationships as I see them.
I want you to see them as people too.
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101.2: Unringing the Bell (Part 2 of 5) – Let’s Be Clear
We cannot talk about this if we don’t talk about this.
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101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) – No excuse
There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal.
And I had many of both.
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I made the decision to spend time with K. My betrayal of C, and the subsequent behaviors and the betrayal of K are inexorably linked. One betrayal cannot exist without the other.
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82: The Elephant
This morning at 8:00 am CST I am facing my fears, anxieties, and humiliations. Anxiety wants me to hide so I’ve decided to do the opposite. I’m going to treat Anxiety like the bully it is: I’m going to punch it in the nose.
Read More 82: The Elephant
I’ve made a lot mistakes since discovery day, 126 days ago. I may not be doing it perfectly but I’ve been doing it.
Read More 55: 22 Days – A quick summary of my failures
Since this began I’ve made two commitments to myself. First of all, no more secrets. Secondly, I’d respect C’s personal space. This past weekend I broke the latter commitment and as a result created a secret.
Read More 42: Reset