SpaghettiSam asks, “What has changed in this person so that the next time a crisis occurs or they aren’t feeling loved and special they don’t opt to go fuck another person?”
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127: Monkeys in the Middle
I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.
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110: This is a test
I’m a bit of a mess this morning. We will be returning to normal programming shortly.
This is only a test. Maybe.
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109: Blah. Blah. Blah.
“Trying to affair-proof your relationship is a fool’s errand. You will be far happier if you focus on affair proofing yourself and keeping your expectations on your partner realistically human.”
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108: Never Not Broken
The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.
I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.
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101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) – Epilogue
As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain.
I’m excited about the possibilities.
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101.4: Unringing the Bell (4 of 5) – Some House Cleaning
I’ve learned everyone has their own Uglies. Hurt people hurt people and you never really know how people will respond to hurt until they are hurt.
Some run, others fight.
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101.3: Unringing the Bell (3 of 5) – The Human Beings
I’ve talked about C and K in fairly abstract terms. I need to take some time and clarify details on those relationships as I see them.
I want you to see them as people too.
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101.2: Unringing the Bell (Part 2 of 5) – Let’s Be Clear
We cannot talk about this if we don’t talk about this.
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101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) – No excuse
There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal.
And I had many of both.
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