There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don't think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.
I packed up everything and moved to Pittsburgh last week. I don't see myself ever going back. I don't want to be here but none the less I am. And that's that...
134.01: The Silent Treatment (1 of 2) Silence for the first time makes complete sense. I'm such a selfish, self-absorbed, blind, deaf, and dumb prick.
Targets are stuck between a rock and a hard place, right where the Narcissist wants them to be, damned if they defend themselves and damned if they don’t BUT basically isolated and defenseless. Gregory Zaffuto After Narcissistic Abuse