61: Relational Blackjack

I was never confused about Painter’s decision to end the relationship. Although I was hurt and sad, I was never confused. I understood.

18: Sex.

There are places I remain frozen in the past.

An outcome of my marriage and the last several relationships is I feel as if I am sexually wrecked. I feel frozen between desire and doubt, analysis and paralysis, ambition and silence

53: I Slept with Her

I have throughout my life, on more than one occasion slept with a woman and left wondering why I did it.

133: Sounding Advice

“You still have C on a pedestal” and other friendly insight.

127: Monkeys in the Middle

I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.

119: And so it goes

“How often we murder parts of ourselves by not letting things advance or come close. How often we let fear rule our emotional lives. How often we kill or chase away everything that moves.” – @MarkNepo

119: And so it goes

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?

108: Never Not Broken

The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.

I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.