When I spend resources trying to avoid the painful moment I am imagining, I will never know how to respond to the actual experience. Everything becomes a story about a fix to a broken fix to another useless hole. These responses to my discomfort only create a new narrative of pain for myself and others. I avoid living in an impermanent moment out of fear.
09: Not Every Day
“Anger gets a vote.” – @TaraBrach
64: Reminder2Self – Vengeance
I was reminded again today that the consequences of my betrayal, secret keeping, and escalating series of lies casts a long shadow.
03: A Love Letter to the Betrayer – I Know You Hurt
I know you hurt Pain is not wrong…The moment we believe something is wrong, our world shrinks and we lose…
28: I am a leaf on the wind
Too often I sense my grieving keeps me focused on things outside my control. However, with time and loving intention, my grieving gives way to a renewed focus on my own patterns, roles, choices, and opportunities.