64: Reminder2Self – Vengeance

I was reminded again today that the consequences of my betrayal, secret keeping, and escalating series of lies casts a long shadow.

03: A Love Letter to the Betrayer – I Know You Hurt

I know you hurt Pain is not wrong…The moment we believe something is wrong, our world shrinks and we lose ourselves in the effort to combat the pain. Tara Brach, Radical Acceptance: Embracing Your Life With the Heart of a Buddha Good day my Friend. Depending where you are, it may not feel like a good […]

28: I am a leaf on the wind

Too often I sense my grieving keeps me focused on things outside my control. However, with time and loving intention, my grieving gives way to a renewed focus on my own patterns, roles, choices, and opportunities.

Best of 2018’s Week 43

From where I stand the primary issues in our relationship wasn’t codependency, enabling, echosim or some clickbait pathology. Those attitudes and approach to communication may have retarded the growth of our relationship and vulnerability but they were never the drivers for me. I still strongly hold to the view that the primary conflicts in our relationship were an issue of communication, not compatibility, motivations, or intentions. Lack of vulnerable communication created a decision-making patchwork defined by guesswork.

04: Hurt People

For a long time I’ve seen this as symbolic of where © and I are, but this morning, as I searched for an image to reflect where I am today, I realized this image I took is also symbolic of my relationship to Pain.

03: Healing

Every time I say I cannot heal © out loud, a man or woman that was betrayed – or some opinionated outsider – cry foul: “You broke it,” they cry, “You fix it!”

To that I say: grow up.

Best of 2018’s Week 42

Here are the people, places, and things that carry me forward through the day as I trudge the road of happy destiny.

143: Silence – Day 34

I’m looking to answer the central question Dr. Madden asks in her book, After A Good Man Cheats, “Do u really want ur relationship back, or r u simply panicking & doing the things u think u r supposed to do?”

126: Grrr…

The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.

110: This is a Test

110: This is a test

I’m a bit of a mess this morning. We will be returning to normal programming shortly.

This is only a test. Maybe.