Lessons From a Black Friday: Year One

Well, that went better than I expected. Much better actually.

Best of 2018’s Week 44

Although I dream about C every day, I can’t go back, she’s gone away. It knocked me down but that’s okay. I’ve got this life to fix. I threw it all out in a ditch. Broken down when I was sick, now I gotta build it back up brick by brick.

01: A Fresh Start

This is the first week in a very long time, where I am not overwhelmed with feelings of shame and humiliation. I did what I did. I cannot undue it. I cannot change any of it.

146: Thoughts on The Marriage of the Princess and the Dragon

I long for the chance to show C what is under the armor. I long for the chance to explore what C and I could create together…but that life is dead.

142: This is where I am

Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.

136: Forgotten

I’ve spent much time and energy focused on my Ugly and working through my pain and loss. As such, I’ve stopped examining what was beautiful and good. It has created a myopic and unbalanced perspective on Our lives.

135: More Patterns

I’ll keep working on changing the things I can and accepting the things I can’t. You can hurt me but you cannot break me. Only the rigid shatter. As always, I keep my heart soft towards you. Not simply because I love you, but because I love myself enough to know this is best for me.

131: Thoughts on Happy Endings by Not Your Average Girl

131: Happy Endings by Not Your Average Girl

I’ve always known what I want and I’m acting accordingly. I’m not wasting time if it helps me learn, grow and see the world and myself more clearly.

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?