Lessons From a Black Friday: Year Four

Four years and time marches on.

47: Stuff that Works

Grief, remorse, and regret work on a dimmer switch, not an on-off switch.

42: Time Moves Slow

As much as I practice suiting up and showing up there is still a melancholy that follows me like dirt off Charles Schulz’s Pigpen.

Music: Boys Don’t Cry

I would do ‘most anything
To get you back by my side
But I just keep on laughing
Hiding the tears in my eyes

Music: She’ So Cold

I’m the burning bush, I’m the burning fire
I’m the bleeding volcano
I’m so hot for her, I’m so hot for her
I’m so hot for her and she’s so cold

Music – Tell Me What You Want

Tell me what you need
And I can do anything
Tell me what you want
Show me how to do it
Tell me what you need
And I’ll do anything

Music – Life To Fix

I got this life to fix
Threw it all out in a ditch
Broken down when I was sick
Gotta build it back up brick by brick

51: Things I Carry – Days Go By

Days go by, and still I think of you…

35: Say Something

I feel like I am finally closing the door on this experience and moving forward. The conversation reminded me again, like my marriage to K and my relationship with C, I am more than the sum of my betrayal.

115: Off The Ground

Oh, quit lying to myself
And let the truth be told
Well, my head is heavy and my heart is empty
But my spirit is strong and my legs are ready