65.6: 5 Days: No More Ghost Stories

5 Days: Not A Ghost Story

“My loyalty has never wavered. I was always there. I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. But when you measure my allegiance only by where I stick my dick, it’s as if the rest doesn’t count for a thing.”

65.5: 6 Days: Moving On

6 Days: Moving On

C and I always said to each other: no matter the problem as long as we’re together we can overcome anything.

Of course, I said a lot of things. So did she.

60: Why

I’m still not sure I have a real answer why I betrayed C. I’m not sure I will ever be able to provide a personally or socially satisfactory answer to the question.

57: Anxiety Disorder is a Thing

In truth, I have an anxiety disorder. Anxiety has been killing me for 123 days. Chest pains, sleeplessness, nightmares, and fear constantly hound me. The trolling certainly hasn’t helped.

I hate admitting it is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

57: Anxiety Disorder is a Thing

In truth, I have an anxiety disorder. Anxiety has been killing me for 123 days. Chest pains, sleeplessness, nightmares, and fear constantly hound me. The trolling certainly hasn’t helped.

I hate admitting it is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

56: A Fool’s Tale: Betrayal (Redux)

Originally posted on Love Letters to a Healing Heart:
Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent. The base Injustice thou hast done my Love: Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress, And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn’d; Heav’n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn’d, Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn‘d.…

53: A Writer Writes

I care until I don’t. I never pretended about my passion or commitment to C before. Right now, as I have always been, I’m still committed to her. Do not presume to tell me I’m doing it wrong.