24: And that’s that

I packed up everything and moved to Pittsburgh last week. I don’t see myself ever going back. I don’t want to be here but none the less I am.

And that’s that…

23: More of This and Lots of That

For nearly a year I gave away my Power and self-respect to Silence. I know what needs to be done.

Maybe I always knew but lacked the willingness to face it.

20: A Letter from the Good Doctor

I acted in ways involving plenty of shitheadery but it pales in comparison to the shit our imaginations make up to keep us locked in fear in an attempt to keep us safe.

19: When infidelity is loving

I’m left to lie to myself so that I can remain angry enough to justify not caring any longer. It requires maintaining a general apathy towards my own truth, and a casual dismissal of my heart, and therefore to my life.

Thoughts on Mark Nepo and the Snappening

Today, I am feeling the entire weight of my xp’s snappening.

As Mark Nepo writes below, “rejection and opposition are painful, but being treated as if you don’t exist is quietly devastating.”

17: Broken Promises

My vow was simple: I’ll take any slings and arrows. I promise I’ll be there. We are partners and I’ll always share everything I have with you. I’ll protect you and keep you safe.

My vow came with a white horse and silver bullets for every problem.

17: Broken Promises

My vow was simple: I’ll take any slings and arrows. I promise I’ll be there. We are partners and I’ll always share everything I have with you. I’ll protect you and keep you safe.

My vow came with a white horse and silver bullets for every problem.

Thoughts on “I know what I would do” by Walking the Journey

If you knew someone’s Partner was cheating, would you tell the man or woman that is being betrayed? What would you do?

10: Vulnerability

What a horrible expectation I place on another person, making them responsible for my safety. When they fail, and across a lifetime they will fail, I punish them for my expectations.

04: Hurt People

For a long time I’ve seen this as symbolic of where © and I are, but this morning, as I searched for an image to reflect where I am today, I realized this image I took is also symbolic of my relationship to Pain.