There was little room to learn how to express feelings, needs, and wants in a way that is vulnerable when it is met with derision, contempt, competing interests, and sarcasm. So I don't think I was afraid of vulnerability as much as having a definition that equated it with weakness resulting in abuse.
Over the last 10 months, I've had a fall (both literally and symbolically). And now I need to let go of the beautiful sorrow and sadness that has been hanging on. I need to drop the things that have served their purpose...
101.5: Unringing the Bell (5 of 5) - Epilogue As my life with C fades to a distant and ringing echo I will move forward with intention. The lessons remain. I'm excited about the possibilities.
101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) - No excuse There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal. And I had many of both.