52: My Anxious Bladder

I hate admitting anxiety is an issue. “Anxiety is for women. Real men don’t get anxious,” my Pride tells me.

19: When infidelity is loving

I’m left to lie to myself so that I can remain angry enough to justify not caring any longer. It requires maintaining a general apathy towards my own truth, and a casual dismissal of my heart, and therefore to my life.

142: This is where I am

Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.

138: Slut

Labeling someone a slut – or a narcissist, predator, or whore – isn’t rape, but the emotional intentions are the same. It’s about taking someone’s Power.

134: The Silent Treatment

134.01: The Silent Treatment (1 of 2)

Silence for the first time makes complete sense.

I’m such a selfish, self-absorbed, blind, deaf, and dumb prick.

129: The 1959 Shasta Airflyte

“What does AA’s “principles before personalities” really mean? It means we practice honesty, humility, compassion, tolerance, and patience with everyone, whether we like them or not.”

127: Monkeys in the Middle

I’ve gone to lengths not to put people in the middle of my situation. I don’t want anyone else to carry my water.

110: This is a Test

110: This is a test

I’m a bit of a mess this morning. We will be returning to normal programming shortly.

This is only a test. Maybe.

107: Hope and Envy

106: Hope and Envy

I want to be done caring or remembering or feeling. Yet hope and romanticism continue mocking my desire to let go. They dances through my dreams.

105: The Art of Love

My heart still sings out to her like an optimistic songbird hoping she will sing back.

There is only silence.