I long for the chance to show C what is under the armor. I long for the chance to explore what C and I could create together…but that life is dead.
142: This is where I am
Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.
140: Parable of the Prickly Porcupine
I realize now my anger and defensiveness were about armoring my heart. I cannot get to where I want to go when weighed down by my anger’s armor.
I’ve spent much time and energy focused on my Ugly and working through my pain and loss. As such, I’ve stopped examining what was beautiful and good. It has created a myopic and unbalanced perspective on Our lives.
135: More Patterns
I’ll keep working on changing the things I can and accepting the things I can’t. You can hurt me but you cannot break me. Only the rigid shatter. As always, I keep my heart soft towards you. Not simply because I love you, but because I love myself enough to know this is best for me.