21: A Love Letter to Betrayers – Discomfort (Part 1)

When I spend resources trying to avoid the painful moment I am imagining, I will never know how to respond to the actual experience. Everything becomes a story about a fix to a broken fix to another useless hole. These responses to my discomfort only create a new narrative of pain for myself and others. I avoid living in an impermanent moment out of fear.

24: Getting it Right

“I’m here to get it right, not be right.” – Brene Brown

I acted dickishly. And by dickishly, I mean I responded with bravado to avoid being vulnerable to a woman I love whose anger still wounds me after all this time.

20: 99 Problems

These feelings do not mean what I think they mean. Pain is not the enemy. These stories I imagine about how I feel are just opinions with embellishments.

143: Silence – Day 34

I’m looking to answer the central question Dr. Madden asks in her book, After A Good Man Cheats, “Do u really want ur relationship back, or r u simply panicking & doing the things u think u r supposed to do?”

142: This is where I am

Do you know where you want to be in 10 years? I do.

141: It’s not about me

I miss her. Sometimes I would just sit in the living room and watch her paint. I know she has been struggling with creating. I hope this is the start of her uncorking her creative bottle.

119: And so it goes

“How often we murder parts of ourselves by not letting things advance or come close. How often we let fear rule our emotional lives. How often we kill or chase away everything that moves.” – @MarkNepo

119: And so it goes

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?

118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency

I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I’ve been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?