These feelings do not mean what I think they mean. Pain is not the enemy. These stories I imagine about how I feel are just opinions with embellishments.
I'm actually in a better place now than I was before Monday's physical and emotional collapse. I'm in a better place because I'm leaning into the pain.
I know who I am.
Let's not bury the lead: I've been struggling the last 12 days with depression and yesterday morning I woke up actively contemplating suicide.