The moment I awoke to the reality that © doesn’t care about me, our life, or our future, I am free. I am free to go dancing. I am free to walk into any place and order a beer. Free to ask a friend that loves me, accepts my Ugly, and hasn’t run, to dance with me.Read More 153.03: The Pattern (Part 3)
108: Never Not Broken
The weight of all of these losses and feelings finally broke me this week. I feel nothing but sadness, loneliness, despair, and emptiness today.
I have nothing to offer anyone. Not even myself. I’m hollow now.Read More 108: Never Not Broken
106: The Mighty
“Do not meddle in the affairs of dragons for you are crunchy and taste good with ketchup.”
I often wonder what keeps relationships going when, on the surface, it seems like there is so much going against them.Read More 106: The Mighty
103: Three Conversations
Love and leave. Love and stay. There is no wrong answer.
What would you do? Do you have the courage to move through the pride and face the pain?Read More 103: Three Conversations
101: Unringing the Bell (1 of 5) – No excuse
There is not a way back after the first act. I cannot unring the bell no matter how many lies I tell or secrets I keep about my betrayal.
And I had many of both.Read More 101.1: Unringing the Bell (Part 1 of 5)
89: Road Warrior
Many people would run for their own reasons. Many people run from their humiliations and anxiety. Me? I’m staying to face my humiliations, anxiety, and failure.
That takes courage and honesty.Read More 89: Road Warrior
This article is without a doubt, the most accurate, and thorough description of my thinking, actions, feelings, and perception of self I have found about the consequences, pain, and anxiety of being tied down by secrets and lies.Read More 65.3: 8 Days: Thoughts on How More Secrets and Lies Destroy Relationships by Darlene Lancer
Yesterday morning I woke up to find a comment by the troll Warren about me on a friend’s blog.
What happened next was both fascinating, amazing, and a bit terrifying.
Dolly is definitely the Queen.Read More 59: Thoughts on Thanks for Stopping by: A Letter to an Interloper by Dolly Allen
Vile and ingrate! too late thou shalt repent. The base Injustice thou hast done my Love: Yes, thou shalt know, spite of thy past Distress, And all those Ills which thou so long hast mourn’d; Heav’n has no Rage, like Love to Hatred turn’d, Nor Hell a Fury, like a Woman scorn’d.Read More 54: A Fool’s Tale: Betrayal
My heart breaks over and over and over. I’m an idiot. A self-sabotaging, unforgiven fool. The cold, hard, and brutal reality is, at this point, I am chasing a rainbow.Read More 24: Chasing Rainbows