49: Kryptonite
I was responsible for the emotional safety, physical well-being, and financial security for another person and their life. Someone that was not my child.
The expectations and pressure destroyed me.
Read More 49: Kryptonite"Be not the slave of your own past – plunge into the sublime seas, dive deep and swim far, so you shall come back with self-respect, with new power, with an advanced experience, that shall explain and overlook the old." – Ralph Waldo Emerson
I was responsible for the emotional safety, physical well-being, and financial security for another person and their life. Someone that was not my child.
The expectations and pressure destroyed me.
Read More 49: KryptoniteTry this again shall we?
Read More 48: Fall in LoveThis is my pattern. I am committed to breaking the pattern.
Read More 46: The Silent TreatmentWe are what we embrace. If we embrace the problem than we are the problem. If we embrace the solution we are the solution. If I embrace shame do I not become my shame?
Read More Thoughts on Pema Chödrön’s Non-Aggression and the 4 MarasI made mistakes. I’m learning. I’m growing. I’ll keep doing better but as I heal, examine myself in the mirror, and let people back into my life I hope this is what I can find within and bring back to the table as a more emotionally complete man.
Perhaps this is the letter I should have written to myself.
Read More 45: A Love Letter to ©Pain isn’t the enemy. Suicide isn’t the answer.
Read More 06: A Love Letter to the Betrayers – SuicideOne of the accusations leveled at men and women post discovery of #infidelity is the intentions to change, remorse, shame is all manufactured after the fact. That wasn’t my experience. I rediscovered a post about shame I wrote to © a month before discovery.
Read More The Things I Carry – The Preamble to FailureThe body reacts to sexual arousal and the flu in similar ways. As such, if I don’t stop long enough to greet my emotional and physical sensations with curiosity, I will get fucked twice.
Read More Thoughts on Anita Pavlovic’s Exist in the MomentIt is impossible for people that never walked in our shoes to know what is true about our behaviors, why we did what we did, or what it means. I barely understand and others certainly never will.
Read More 05: A Love Letter to the Betrayers – Labels and Abuse