70: Playing With Fire

When I made a decision to have an affair with my ex-wife Beatrix, it lasted a very short period of time. From what I can tell maybe 4 months out of the seven years I was with Painter. Four to six sexual encounters. Four to six too many. However, I spent the next two and […]

65: Stories of Scapegoats

I recognize all change is internal growth externalized. If I want a different relationship with others, it is my burden to show up differently and be there for them when they are ready.

63: Stories of Dick Pics

Which of course begs the question, knowing I didn’t send one, what is Painter gaining by pretending I did something I didn’t?

62: Stories of Invisible Loyalties

I have allowed invisible loyalties to interfere in my well-being. I have taken life-altering actions on more than one occasion because I allowed invisible loyalties to hijack my decision-making process.

61: Relational Blackjack

I was never confused about Painter’s decision to end the relationship. Although I was hurt and sad, I was never confused. I understood.

60: Weekend 49 Fodder: Loneliness

I’ll make time to sit this weekend.

55: Zero Sum Love, Redux

You are, however, not perfect. But neither is anyone else.

54: Stories of A Facebook Crush

Recently I made a statement on my Twitter thread that I had a FB crush. Like so much of what I write on Twitter, it was intended as a comma on a particular moment. Perhaps, I shouldn’t have said anything?

45: Pursuers and Distancers

There are moments I’m often confused and bored by the stability in my relationship with Chef. I mean, if I’m not responsible for constantly attending to her ego and entitlement while driving connection, what am I suppose to do with all my free time?

44: Sunflowers

How we got here doesn’t have to define where we go. Living that truth is all that is required to break the patterns.