Today I recognize my choices for what they were—an unfortunate and unskillful habit of treating how I felt like a directive. I realize how often, in intimate and vulnerable relationships, I responded with a habituated neurological urge to pursue what I considered comfortable feelings while avoiding the discomfort.
Month: December 2020
18: Sex.
There are places I remain frozen in the past.
An outcome of my marriage and the last several relationships is I feel as if I am sexually wrecked. I feel frozen between desire and doubt, analysis and paralysis, ambition and silence
17: Picture This
No matter how I reacted, it wasn’t going to undo the consequences of the impact.
There are some things that cannot be fixed.
16: Growth and Change
“It hurts to grow alone,” writes C. JoyBell C. “It hurts to realise that someone else won’t be coming with you.” As a result, I now recognize growth is always a selfish act.
Always.
15: Reminder2self: Accountability
“Accountability doesn’t mean punishment. Accountability is a willingness to accept responsibility for our own actions.”