"I'm here to get it right, not be right." - Brene Brown I acted dickishly. And by dickishly, I mean I responded with bravado to avoid being vulnerable to a woman I love whose anger still wounds me after all this time.
There was a great deal of beautiful qualities in my relationship with my ex...but she is not the flower. She is not the reason it was beautiful. She is not the blossom or the tree. Our life was beautiful and it bloomed because that was the season and we both contributed to the season.. Our life together blossomed because it was our choice. Now it's time for a different choice.
There is nothing simple that I have chosen to do. I think it is human to believe change is for the other person even when we know the solution lies within.
When I saw Esther Perel's continuum summarizing a Relationship Accountability Spectrum, I was like, "Holy FUCK! Ghosting?! That is exactly what has happened over the last year! That is what she did! That is how I feel and behave! I'm not crazy or irrational!"