I long for the chance to show C what is under the armor. I long for the chance to explore what C and I could create together...but that life is dead.
I realize now my anger and defensiveness were about armoring my heart. I cannot get to where I want to go when weighed down by my anger's armor.
126: Grrr... The pain will never go away. I will only find perspective for the pain. It is a part of me now. To hate the pain is to hate myself; to love myself is to love my pain.
118: Thoughts on Forgiveness and Clemency I realize, like so much, I have been approaching this wrong: I've been seeking forgiveness from C, that is selfish. Is it any wonder C is still pissed?